Back to work in a month

It still seems so close, but still so far away. I haven’t been *unemployed* this longs since before I was ever employed. I am not technically unemployed, but I haven’t worked (at my job…) since January 20th. Seems like I have been gone FOREVER! I miss my job as a nurse, but my job as a mom keeps me very busy as well. In fact I think more busy most days. My son and I are usually busy doing something, and Audrey always comes along for the ride.

I have found that I feel like since I have been home I feel like I need to justify everything I do. It’s a weird feeling, not that I am doing anything wrong, or shirking on any of my responsibilities, but when I am home full-time I feel like my time isn’t as valuable I guess. I know that it is, but being home as a mom is very under appreciated I think. I wonder if most mom’s who stay home feel that way. I know that my kids love it when I am home, and I enjoy being home with them, I also like being a homemaker (you know the cooking cleaning part of things) it’s fun, but it really doesn’t come with a lot of excitement.

When I spend a day at work I get to talk about all the great stuff I do for other people. I delivered twins, I assisted in surgery, I helped with a shoulder distocia, etc etc, ad nauseum. This is all a far more exciting answer to the question, “What did you do today?” My typical answer lately is, “umm well I wiped the counters and went to the grocery store.” Far less exciting then my typical day, but also usually a lot more difficult. (YOU try taking 2 kids to the grocery store and keep them happy!) I wonder if I feel like this because I am so used to working, or maybe my other SAHM friends feel the same way (Feel free to chime in ladies). Motherhood is very under appreciated.

On to a more upbeat note… Things are still going great between my two kiddos. Aiden is still in love with Audrey, and she is actually starting to show signs that she loves him just as much. She loves watching him jump and dance around, and she loves when he comes and lays next to her under her play mat. She has also turned into a bit of a “binky baby.” Aiden completely refused a pacifier as a baby, but Audrey loves it. She doesn’t have it in her mouth all the time, but maybe a couple hours a day. I am hoping maybe it’ll aid in the not-chewing toys-until-you’re-three phase that Aiden seems to be on. We’ll see I guess. Otherwise Audrey is growing like a weed, it’s amazing how many things she has outgrown already! Aiden was smaller for longer it seems, but I am glad to know she is healthy. And she sleeps great! I can honestly say I get as much (or maybe more) sleep now then I did when I was pregnant. Definitely not the same case with Aiden. Although he was a great sleeper, not nearly as great as Audrey. Lucky me!

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